Okay I am coming back to DA frankly because I think I might be missing out on some really great art. Can't say how long my attention will last though.

Also, have to clean out my friends list, nothing personal, but it's been so long I can't remember why I started watching some people (what I mean is, obviously both mine and other people's interests have changed) and my freaking inbox is insanely full.

And -- I feel really bad about having done absolutely nothing for ~RvBSlashElysium, but I believe I said many times that somebody else is welcome to take over the comm and despite loads of people still adding it and making submissions, nobody has taken the offer and I just don't care enough about it to keep running it.

I think I've really lost interest in DA. It's just that most of my friends hang out at different places on the web, not here, so there's really no point.

If anyone's interested, my fanfiction.net page is [link] . I update regularly, mostly for General Hospital at the moment, but really just whatever suits my fancy. And I take requests, too, to an extent.

I love message boards (drop me a link if you have one) and I'm pretty much constantly on the SpinMax board.

If you livejournal, mine's [link] and it's updated more often than anything else. I'm always looking for friends.

If you're an avid youtube fan, my page is [link] and I'm always willing to comment on vids.

My myspace is [link] . It's less used than other stuff, but I will comment/message back eventually.

Maybe I'll come back to DA in a few weeks/months, but that's probably only if I make a significant amount of friends who use this.

My messanger contacts are zephisx (aim) , [link] (msn), and ishy_teh_red_mage (yahoo). I'm usually up for a chat if you want to talk, and I'm willing to roleplay if you're willing to put up with my crappy rp-ing skills. (I don't do NC-17 stuff,sorry, and I don't really like rp-ing furry/vore stuff.)

On another note, I'm not much of a beta-reader but I enjoy helping out where I can, especially in the way of research and pre-reading. I frequently campaign for GH and other causes, and if anyone is looking for help in something like that just let me know.

Dang, February is turning out to be really expensive. I mean, there’s a $15 dollar fee to enter something in the town fair (which is a requirement if I want to pass Agriculture), then we have a field trip, supplies have to be purchased for a project, stuff has to be bought for the Criminal Justice luncheon, and a $10 fee for OSHA training. Hello? I’d like to spend my cash on something other than school, thank you.


But whatever. Doesn’t matter. This weekend, horror movie night. And it’s gonna be awesome. I got some mild scares to start the night off: White Noise 2, The Gravedancers, Someone Behind You. Then I got some better ones: Kuntilanak, Alone (the trailer for which, by the way, scared the crap out of me). Maybe we’ll watch the Death Note movie, possibly the original “The Eye”. I haven’t decided. But it’s gonna be great.

Come outside
Before you come undone
We'll take a drive
So you can breathe
The west coast wind tonight
Whispers under the starlight
Tomorrow's a new day
~~~West Coast Wind, The City Drive

This is a filler. Just me blah, blah, blahing. Mostly because I’m tired of seeing my last lame journal entry every time I come to my page, so I’m sure other people are too.
I haven’t really had gotten on here much because….I’m totally freaking out, to be honest. I signed up for the fic exchange at kkm_vday on livejournal and the deadline is in like 22 days and I suck. I keep spazzing out. But I’m not gonna quit, no way.

Also, I recently experienced a crushing humiliation. And believe me, I’m usually pretty good at being humiliated. There is something just reeeeeeaaaallly embarrassing about having your grandpa see your slash fanfiction. Yeah. I can’t get my new Ipod to work ,right, so I, being the total and complete genius that I occasionally am, get my grandpa to come have a look at it. He opens a read-me file in Word Perfect and ,hey!, guess who left three slashilicious stories in stand by? (Me.) And guess who read them? (Grandpa.) Yeah. I’m still blushing.

So! Since I’m making this entry, I might as well ask…how’s everyone’s holiday going? Who got kick-ass Christmas gifts? Who didn’t? And! Who made New Year Resolutions? (Not me.)

You know, love never lasts. So why do we even bother?
–Sam McCall, GH


First of all, let me say that today I finished a book called "Snow Flower and the Secret Fan" and it made me cry. I cried and cried and teared up some more and then I finally calmed down.

And I know none of my friends really watch General Hospital. But know this--tonight, it broke my heart. I'm serious. Don't get me wrong, I'm pretty soft. I got really sad when I watched Million Dollar Baby. I sniffled a lot when Hiro found out he couldn't save Charlie . I ache for days each time I watch the Fox and the Hound and wish Copper and Todd really could be friends forever. I was a mess when Rosette sat on a porch swing with Chrno and admitted she wasn't ready to die. When Mona died on AMC and Ericka clutched her coffin, when Tony Jones listened to his dead daughter's heart beat in another girl's body, when Sam woke up from her coma and started looking for her stillborn baby, when you see Ford and Arthur and Trillian for the last time--yeah, I cried for all of it. That's what I do.

I mean, geez, I was even upset when Flower died on Meerkat Manor.

But this? Seriously, I'm still crying. It's already been an hour. She wasn't even my favorite character. Not even close. But it was sad. Horrible. When Nic is holding the love of his life who's only just returned to him, and saying that she's just resting and she'll be okay as long as she's with him and that he'll always love her and he'll die for her, always, and that she just needs to wake up---I just crumpled.